Listen sometimes I just wanna do normal fan things without being judged by family or friends irl. There are also certain things that I know only an ARMY will understand or at least someone that's a big fan of something. So I'm here to speak my Truth untold
I have some accessories/shoes that I bought because I saw them on BTS. I've regularly asked my mum for a few for special occasions like Christmas or my birthday (why the sudden interest kid? Uhmmm no special reason mum)
A lot of family vacations or hangouts I planned was because I wanted to go to places that BTS has been to or eaten at
How much I've really spent on concerts, merch and BT21 (looking at you LINE Friends store the wallet vacuum)
Are there any things in your ARMY life that only you know and no one else in your family or circle of friends do? Have you been subliminally making them BTS fans, are you sneaking BTS songs in that work place playlist? Are you fighting ppl online defending BTS' honor like the purple knight that you are? Are you spending hours on /r/bangtan daily 😏
It can be anything from something silly like a hidden BTS altar or a Min Yoongi cutout that just happens to be life size in a suit/tux, to something dark (hello FBI and Interpol 👋) or anything you've been doing and would like to get off your chest — within sub rules of course!
Let it all out in one, two…tea!!
What is your deepest (not necessarily) ARMY life secret that none of your family or irl friends know? Spill them here! We won't tell them!
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I watch an unhealthy amount of JK content (edits mostly but also random dancing snippets).
No one knows. Shhh!
how much I’ve spent on concerts 😅 but it was worth every penny to me and I’ll do it again in a heart beat!!
I bought the [Manomos glasses](https://en.manomos.com/product/mods-c1/1069/) that Jin wore in the MOTS: 7 promo. normally I wouldn’t buy something just because a celeb wore it, but they looked so good on Jin I took the risk and ordered. I lucked out that they suit me well too!
also, I don’t want to go to any other artist concert besides BTS now. I’ve been to a lot of concerts, but BTS set the bar SO high and I’d rather just save up to go see BTS again. I know ARMY will understand this one but it’s something other people can get weird about. maybe I’m just getting old, but concerts really take a toll on me and even though I like other artists’ music, they aren’t worth the effort to see live for me personally.
I have an Essentials hoody that I bought because I saw the tannies wearing the brand on Run BTS (I wouldn’t have bought it otherwise)
I watch the dance practices and MVs at home when I’m on my own pretty much non stop – happy days!
I mean I’m on here lol ~~absolutely whipped for Jimin~~
P sure my family has seen my little Muse photo card on my nightstand tho lmao
Also his song Letters seriously made me cry
But a good number of people know I’m a fan lol, just not the degree 😆
sometimes i start to tally how much i’ve spent on merch/bt21/tour/albums in the past 3.5 years and then i stop counting because it makes me nervous 😅 whenever they ask how much something was, i always round down $5-$20 (don’t get me started on the DVD sets)
I think the most embarrassing would be, that I have a cute Jungkook poster in my closet (which is the normal part) the thing is ,it’s there’s because I often talk shit with it when I’m getting ready in the morning, when I get back home and change into pajamas. I’ve been doing it since I was a college freshman in 2017 and had a lot to vent but the tradition followed me till now.
How many pictures of yoongi are on my phone. How much I think about them on a day to day basis. How much money I spend on merch.The existence of my photocard collection.
But also: How deeply stressed out I got from the yoongi situation. I lost sleep and got a panic attack. I cried about it. That felt like something others wouldn’t be able to understand. Some people actually brought it up because they saw it online, and I just went like “oh yeah, I heard about it, what a ridiculous situation, ” like I hadn’t just experienced the war that was this august.
flew halfway across the world to a country I’ve never been in before, to see yoongi’s concert 😫 it was a last minute decision and i didn’t tell anyone irl! literally flew on the Friday, caught 2 shows and flew back home on Sunday, it still doesn’t feel real that i was there
I didn’t buy Youtube Premium to get rid of the ads, I bought it for making the playlists count more in the charts. I didn’t buy that hoodie because of the colour, I bought it because it’s a dupe of what I saw on the knitJM twitter account. I’m not in a webmeeting, I’m watching Bangtan Bombs from 10 years ago.
The edits and fancam footage that I watch make me somewhere in the middle between being a soft and hard stan.
Like, I’m sorry, Mom, I know Hobi’s hip thrusts are indecent yet equally tantalising in Bapsae, but that’s not considered “soft core.” She’s so innocent she doesn’t even know other groups’ choreography that are just as “bad.”
Sometimes, I read self-insert fics as a means to comfort myself (knowing realistically, BTS don’t know of my existence). I enjoy fluff and crack genres because, in reality, I’d like to be considered one of their friends and just hang out with them.
No one knows I’m army, well most of my friends IRL don’t know. Neither does my family. I buy cute stuff so they don’t really notice the bt21 stuff I get. I went to see Suga’s movie alone and I’m going to see JK’s movie alone as well.
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i’m convinced my skin is clearer than ever because i listen to jhope during my morning skincare routine. like, it’s a legit and important part of the routine.
but when someone asks it’s the vitamin c, because i’m a completely normal adult.
How often I use them as passwords.
(Not for my reddit or email account you ne’re-do-wells.)
1. The thousands of dollars I have spent on concerts, merch, music…and will continue to spend on these things 😅
2. JK’s Golden album postcard, the one with that mesh shirt, you know the one lol, posted to the side of my fridge. So far only 1 person has spotted it 😆, plus the random photocards in my wallet.
I got new glasses last year and they are the same as Suga’s.
I don’t have that many ARMY friends so with my normie friends I will introduce it into conversation, “this is the time that I will be exclusively sharing about what BTS is doing and how I feel about them.” I get polite nods and smiles or criticism for my fandom even though I’m not actually communicating my full delulu obsession. I wish everyone could just let people love what they love and STFU about it. Dad spent $900 on golfing last month? No one says ANYTHING. Why is it different when I spend $50 to see JK movie a few days in a row!?
I bought both the Korean and the English versions of Beyond the Story even though I can’t read Korean. I haven’t told anyone I bought the Korean version too. I’m a bit of a book hoarder so no one has noticed because I have hidden it in a pile in a corner.
The only things that comes to mind is that my friends and family don’t know I read BL fanfics about BTS…🥺
1. I’ve always liked reading books and when I got to know about Namu’s being an ardent reader. I couldn’t help but tried to read possibly every book that he has ever read or recommended.
2. Cried >! (still do) !< multiple times when they went to military (please don’t judge me 🥹) and used to remind myself how much I miss them literally everyday as if they are my friends and we used to see eachother everyday.
3. Had multiple fanpage accounts for each member on IG.
4. Stayed awake all night to stream songs and vote.
5. Listened to Spring Days religiously for some unknown reason (that song still hits the same istg).
OMG this thread! So many relatable ones!! xD
Most of the examples here are cute though, so I feel slightly embarrassed about mine 😭 (and my family and professors would flip if they ever found out). So it’s when the “Love Yourself in Seoul” concert movie came out (their first ever concert movie, and I was still a pretty new ARMY at the time). I desperately wanted to see it, but it came out right in the middle of my theory exams for med school final year (literally the most important exam of my life). The toughest subject was Medicine for which I had Paper 1 on Friday, and Paper 2 on Monday. Decided to go on Sunday afternoon anyway to watch the movie 🙈 luckily it worked out for me and my exams went well, but gosh, what was i thinking hahah. My friends from college still cannot believe I did that, and i definitely think it’s the craziest thing I’ve done relating to the tannies.
I have Namjoon’s pic on my office wall, smiling and looking at me, mixed in with postcards from the places I visited.
Oh and – I also have the three pictures Joon, Jin and JK took on a timer for Festa 2021 on my office wall :3 They are very small, got them as a gift and I love them!
Am the only person in my office, but my boss never noticed when she was in town while visiting (so far!) 😀
Edit: found the [pic](https://i.imgur.com/V5nl8rS.jpg) I took in April, find the boys! 😀
I do have a couple of irl army friends on the subreddit 🫣, but I’m okay with spilling **some** secrets.
I have a printed picture (in color) of Jin and Jungkook’s abs (zoomed in) that I use as motivation to get me through a workout. And while don’t have it lying out and about or look at it daily (girl scouts honor ✋️), I can say that it has helped on days where I don’t feel like doing planks or mountain climbers or even a simple crunch.
My mom custom made a large poster of them for me as a gift and everyday as I leave the house, I wave goodbye to them 😆 if I’m about to leave and remember I didn’t say bye, I go back inside and wave at them 🫣
I used to have the kpop app where Jhope would text me as the day goes on this was back in 2016 though almost 8 years ago im 29 now Lol it’s kind of cringe but hilarious now they are making AI friendship apps I feel ahead of my time.
I‘m friends with their (and other well known bands) former sound engineer since 2018. I can’t tell my friends because they‘d go crazy over it and hope for opportunities.
I…dragged my partner to a coffee shop in Tokyo that Namjoon had posted on Instagram not realizing the place was a tiny tiny stand inside of a stupidly expensive men’s clothing store. He was like “why are we here” and tried to get me to leave and I had to make desperate excuses about how the coffee had good reviews. In all fairness, the coffee WAS good though…😳
BTS reignited my love for ramen and japchae. My pantry is stocked full of assorted ramen and snacks I’ve seen them snacking on. When people ask why I have so much, I just say it’s for doomsday prep, as if that didn’t make me sound crazier.
I also do the fashion thing. I buy rings, earrings, bracelets, and necklaces that are BTS coded. But I don’t get anything that just spells out BTS.
Just being a fan of them.
Buying their albums, watching their non musical content, etc.
It’s not specific to Bangtan.
Most people don’t understand why I would buy a version of an album that I already have just because there’s one previously unreleased song or why I travel abroad to follow a touring artist around.
(Because I can)
Not a secret, but there’s almost no Army where I live, they don’t have much of an idea of them. A few of my neighbors know vaguely about BTS because I have a Shooky keyring that lives on my rollator handle (will using that be a problem if, big if, I’m still around and can get a ticket when they tour again?), and an OT7 card in my clear phone case, along with Yoongi as my Lock Screen. I’m grandma Army.
The situation with Yoongi has had a huge effect on me to the point I’ve blocked all the usual KMedia sites. There’s no one here to vent about it. Anything that hurts any of them hurts me. I want to hug them, protect them, knowing full well they’re more than capable of protecting themselves.
My family knows that I’m a bts fan & that I always play their music & watch their performance content sometimes in front of them. But they don’t know that BTS is more than that for me. They don’t know that I’m a very loyal & passionate ARMY that is defending BTS & fighting antis on twitter. They don’t know that I have thousands of photos of the tannies in my gallery. They don’t know that BTS have a very significant impact in my life.
There’s this joke within our fandom right? – that our family finds out our gallery after we die & think how deranged we must have been. That thought literally stresses me out cuz I know that they wouldn’t understand why I have hundreds of photos of a man compared to cats, they wouldn’t understand why I have a collection of photos of a young man booping the camera like this. They wouldn’t understand why I have cute & sexy photos of 7 men who don’t even know me.
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And like OP said I do intentionally play BTS music that suits my sister taste in music & I have been subliminally making her add some of BTS’s songs into her playlist. If she listens to a new song & likes it, she tries looking at the name of the song that is playing, when I’m not around. I pretend that I didn’t notice her looking at the name of the song. Like this as far as I know, she now likes some of the songs like – Anpanman, LOST!, NEURON, on the street, so far away, etc
IDK if I have anything to include, but… um. I just want pics of your accessories/shoes bc BTS.
PLS?? 💜 (I love spying on ppl’s merch displays/hauls!)
I’m fairly new Army, so I don’t really have any secrets yet…
I make everyone listen to my BTS playlist on repeat at work with no shame (I’m a medical provider so they have to listen to what I want). My medical assistant hums along to a lot of songs now…
I am not shy about my plans to go to SK some day or the fact that I’m learning Korean because of BTS. My family and friends tolerate my obsession even if they don’t understand…
Maybe the one secret is how much I’ve spent on dvd form content. I have purchased all the memories dvd sets, as well as most of the concert DVDs, most of which I got off eBay. The 2014 memories cost me more than I would admit to any family members so yeah, definitely a secret.
Whatever, it makes me happy! 💜💜💜
The amount of romantic dreams I have of Bangtan (usually Jin or Namjoon 😂). I am a happily married woman irl but the fangirl in me rules my dreams, apparently
I donated a lot of money to send support to Yoongi, my family would criticize me if they knew.
So my husband and kids know I am ARMY but they dont know all the references to them I have added to my life. I wanted an anniversary ring, I ended up picking a silver celtic style ring with an amethyst (purple stone). Our anniversary is in February, it’s a 2 for 1. Also, my extended family is about to have a reunion soon. The t-shirt color for our group is purple. I pretended to be neutral on the choice. Last is, I have made a career change to a business industry that is more closely related to BTS. No one at work knows as well.
1. The amt of money I’ve spent. I question almost every purchase I make, but with BTS, I swipe without thinking. However, I have no regrets
2. The reason I brought Jimins purple hoodie was because I saw an [edit](https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZP8eG7up9/)of Jin wearing it on Tik Tok.
3. I hope no one sees my phone gallery. There are so many photos, gifs, videos, and memes. I’ve never done this before. It’s not even organized. It’s a mess 😂
4. I have these. Can you tell who my bias is 😅. Everyone thinks they are just regular plushies. I will never tell anyone the truth. Yes, I named them
-Yoongerine (this one I keep on my car, you know take it to beautiful places)
-Su-mellow
-Agust D’Cat
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I told my fam I was going on a train trip around America and everyone was like wow that’s a trip of a lifetime – I was actually with a bunch of army and we went to pretty much every night of sugas tour – I saw nothing else 🙈
I am pretty sure my parents would ship me off to a remote island with no wifi if they found out I have been secretly funding the BTS merch empire with my out of control shopping sprees😌 ( I am in my mid twenties so I bought all these with my money but yk parents are gonna parent if they knew about these spendings)
1. I have a Seokjin living in my wallet. It’s his discharge photo when he’s saluting. Adorable. I love him.
He does serve a specific purpose, though!
I’ve heard of the ARMY that almost got her phone stolen, but the theif gave it back because of a lockscreen of Seokjin in uniform, and the thief must have thought, “oh shit! Her boyfriend is in the military!” And gave it back to her.
So in the hopefully unlikely event I lose my wallet, people will see my “boyfriend” in the wallet and return it.
2. I am man enough to admit that if I’m listening to certain songs, I’ll sing along to the chorus or whatever in English. SDL by August D came on as I leave class to wait for the bus? **”SOMEBODY DOES LOOOOOVE!! AND I’M THINKING BOUT YOU!”**
To those who don’t know, they might think I’m insane, think I’m singing to someone on the phone, honestly I don’t know how “normal” people would react to the weird girl in their class shouting the lyrics of a song. And I have ANC on so that makes me feel more better about going wild.
3. I have been making up goofy logic scenarios so I can stay afloat in my philosophy class because apparently I can’t understand “If A, then B. A. Therefore, B”, but I can understand… “If Min Yoongi exists, he is a cat. Min Yoongi exists. Therefore, he is a cat.”
4. I talk to character.ai characters of the BTS members to intensify the delulu mwahahahaha!
5. I have the welcome back Jin photo hanging up in my bedroom above my silly BTS shrine that’s slowly turning into the hyperfixation shrine.
I wake up, look at all of them, and I’m like, “I’m doing it for y’all.”
6. I am genuinely considering buying a buttload of lomo photocards, toploaders, and deco stickers to decorate them and then… leave them in innocuous places before finals week. When I return for the spring semester I’ll check to see if they were found. (I am literally a college student why do I wanna be a social menace)
7. I recently bought the Buds 2 Pro specifically for Yoongi.
8. When I was like, 14 or 15, I would listen to ASMR of [member] sleeping next to you. Surprisingly, it put me to sleep.
Nowadays I listen to MoistCritikal’s stories and I sleep to that. I am not as delulu and crazy as the me from 4-5 years ago I promise
This is turning into a huge confession. Holy crap.
Not really a secret but in my last job I’d sometimes cover the reception desk for my colleagues so they could go on their lunch. The reception desk computer was connected to the sound system in the foyer which had a high vaulted ceiling to the roof which was open on to 3 floors of corridors with balcony style areas over looking the reception area. They used to play either the radio or Spotify playlists through it for music in the building and I would sneak as many English lyric BTS songs in as possible without it being too obvious lol. To the point the Korean version of Jimin’s Like Crazy sounds odd to me now as I got used to the other version at work lol. I also snuck BTS songs into presentations at that job which required music on the slides more than once.
It’s even funnier when you realise the job I worked at was an educational institution for teenagers so I hope there was at least one teen army out there who noticed and appreciated the effort haha.
1) I used to read jikook fanfiction…It’s really embarrassing because I no longer read fanfiction about real people. I wasn’t a toxic shipper, but I’d squeal each time I saw a jikook moment.
2) I worked 11 days in a row and spent that entire overtime paycheck to go to a BTS concert two days in a row. I worked retail at the time so I wasn’t making much money. It was worth it but my mom thinks that was insane of me lol
Lol I love this thread! My family know I’m obsessed with them and have turned my older brother into a baby Army. What they *don’t* know is just how many photos of them are on my phone (far more than my 3 nieces or any other family member), how much money I’ve spent on albums, the fact that I got a Kakao ID just in the off-chance I could win that fanmeet video for Yoongi, and they definitely don’t know that “me married to Namjoon” is the main fodder for the fake scenarios of my life I live out in the shower and in the car and sometimes before I go to sleep. 🤭 #deluluisthesolulu
Confession time!! I am an extremely private 50 year old with a husband and teenage boys. NO ONE in my life would ever think I would be a fan of BTS. However:
– I literally have thousands and thousands of pictures, gifs, and video saved on my phone from Twitter. My husband would have an existential crisis if I died and he found them. I gotta find a way to hide them!
– My husband and kids know I like BTS, and kdramas, and that I am learning Korean. They think I casually listen. They don’t know about Bangtan bombs, Bon Voyage, In the Soop, Run BTS, etc. And I have watched every content I can, while they are away from home or if I stay up until 3am after everyone is asleep. My husband did think I was crazy to get up in the middle of the night to watch concerts, though.
– No one in my life other than my husband and kids know I listen to BTS. I feel protective of them and don’t want anyone to say anything negative.
– I have Yoongi’s doc marten sandals that he wore all the time in 2020 and 2021. I have a ring in the shape of a lotus flower to symbolize D-Day. I wear Yoongi’s artist-designed necklace under my shirts. (Can you guess who my bias is?), Purple is now my favorite color (for no reason!). I have a bookshelf in my home office filled with BTS merch, but no one ever really goes in there, so no one knows how much I have.
– When we visited NYC this summer we went to Grand Central Terminal. I told my husband that it is pretty and I wanted to take pictures. The real reason is because in February 2020 I saw the Tonight Show with Jimmy Fallon episode with BTS when they performed On at Grand Central. This was my introduction to the guys. I was blown away and had to google their names. I really wanted to see the place that started my obsession.
I have more, but I’ll stop the novel. Feels good to get it off my chest!