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>I can’t hug each and every one of you, but my heart is more than that.

I have no idea if this translation is even remotely correct, but…my heart. I didn’t pay much attention to my heart before BTS and now it’s always feeling something.

Happy Birthday, Kim Namjoon. The love you give us is returned a thousand fold.

i’m reading the weverse translation and listening to indigo at the same time, and it’s such a bittersweet feeling. this man who has such a big heart, is so poetic and emotionally intelligent and introspective and intellectual, that carries so much weight on his shoulders and gets caught up in his thoughts and writes us long letters to let us know how much he loves us even when he doesn’t love himself sometimes, that always strives to be a better person every day.

happy 29th birthday joonie. you deserve all the good things in the world and i hope you always, always know that.

edit: [wisha](https://x.com/doyou_bangtan/status/1701258149519564896?s=46) translated some excerpts from his letter and i am weeping.
> I regularly have the thought that love is the act of someone being given a name. For Kim Namjoon to have become ‘Kim Namjoon’. While today may just be one of the many days that make up the 365, it is all thanks to you that the birthday of my twenty ninth year isn’t just a day that simply brushes past me …

> I feel as though I would’ve have been writing this letter in September 2023, no matter which version of myself I was. Every one of my birthday letters is its own respective language of love, pronounced at the point I’ve currently reached. Thanks to you all, I really am living well. I want to live well. I simply wanted to deliver to you as always that I loved you, in my updated and utmost version. While I may not be able to hug each and every one of you, my heart extends beyond that. I won’t ask you to love me in whatever form I take. I merely hope to try as much as I myself have received.

i love him. so so much.

Even with the auto translate, his words just make me tear up. Happy birthday, Joon! 🥰🥰

To the one who eroded all my edges and who made my live to a love. Happy birthday, Joon. Love you to the moon and back 🤍

I don’t even know what to say anymore. Even with the auto translate his feelings come through in such a beautiful way.

Happy birthday, Joonie! My forever #1!

I always love reading his letters. So much warmth and sincerity in his words. The updates on his journey to heal and love himself are so endearing.

“I love you with my latest and best version every time” 😭😭😭

the way he writes us a letter full of gratefulness and love, his heart is so big 😭 wishing him the happiest of birthdays 🥺💜🎉

NGL the alert sent my tummy plummeting. And then I remembered it’s his birthday. 😊🎂

That letter felt like a hug and specially today it’s really what I needed the most.

I just… This man… I can’t! 🥺🥺 He’s so sincere and so warm-hearted, that every time he writes us one of these letters, my heart feels so full and grateful. Emotions are complex enough, much less putting them into words, but the way Namjoon voices his (or tries to wrap his head around the complexities, intricacies, and nuances of this thing called life and love) is so beautiful. I hope he has a wonderful birthday and knows just how much of a gift he is by simply being. 💙

Happy Birthday Namjoon. He’s so full of love, and he deserves all the love in the world.

My heart is full reading the Weverse translation, and I’m just so full of awe of his writing.


As always, I love reading his long form letters. Hopefully, he’ll publish them as a collection one day. Hope he has a wonderful birthday!

[Translation by miiniyoongs](https://twitter.com/miiniyoongs/status/1701269301875888237)

> hello.

> it’s my last birthday in my 20s

> i’m not sure if it’s because of my occupational characteristic, but it feels that a bit of shyness accompanies the day called birthday. even though i think that its a day that isnt too big of a deal.. i feel so happy and blessed that so many people send their sincerest congratulations/wishes.

> time to time, i think that love is something that gives/creates a name to someone. to where kim namjoon becomes ‘kim namjoon’. and its all because of you, that although it is just one day out of the many 365 days in a year, 29 year old me isn’t just a day that’s passing by.

> although i want to be a person who can be as honest as one can be, i wonder, to what extent, could the existence of the intangible and tangible relationship between fans and artists possibly go beyond and reach up to can everything just be accepted under a kind apparition called love? im still experiencing times where expressing my inner thoughts honestly becomes an achilles heel, and honesty becomes a wound, but im still not sure.

> i had said in the past that i was sad that it was growing harder to talk. i feel that statement still stands true. but still, ive grown calmer. because i received all the sincereity that one may or may not receive in one’s life in the form of a large downpour, i regarded pessimism and futility to be cool, but i realized that im also someone who is optimistic. isnt this a miracle. lately ive been living with the phrase, ‘why not’. i want to live by sharing the optimism that ive received from the people around me.

> and im also pressing down and holding onto my next songs that will be released someday.

> yes. could i show honesty in a more beautiful method than with music? its a truth everyone knows but it feels as if its still not enough.

> thats why i sometimes wonder if i became bts because of this. because i wanted to do so in various ways. whether it be through programs, interview, or dance, whatever it may be.. how blessed of a life this is.

> and wherever i am, these things make me want to see it clearly with my own two eyes and ponder.

> they say its destiny when things coincidentally overlap. they also say coincidence is also fate disguised as coincidence.

> and i think thats of a similar reason as to why im writing this letter to you. it feels as if i would have wrote this letter on September 2023 regardless of which version of me i would have been. every time, my birthday letter is describing the place that i have arrived at, just in a different language of love each time. because of all of you, im living really well. i want to live well. i just want to tell you every time, that im loving you with the best version of myself.

> although i cant hug each and every one of you, my heart/feelings exceeds those feelings. no matter what appearance i may take, i wont ask for you to love me. but i will put in the effort that reflects how much <love> i have received.

> the last birthday of my 20s is going smoothly like this. let us be healthy and happy for a long time, no matter what sky we’re under. lets meet again after some time passes.

> sincerely wishing you an early, if not a belated, happy birthday to you as well !

> thank you.

> -namjoon

ugh i love him so much i literally have no words to explain it. his writing is always so heartfelt and thoughtful. i hope he has the best day ever, he deserves all the love and everything good in the world 💙