Okay so I became a true army in 2018 I didn’t really realize the collecting craze in Kpop so when I displayed all my things I used tape and command strips and didn’t protect my merch not knowing anything about how easily Kpop merch became damaged. Now it’s 2024 and I am haunted every single day by raging ocd type anxiety and guilt of feeling like a fake army because I have damaged so much of my merch. It literally eats me up every day for long periods of time when I hyperfixate on something or find something else that’s damaged. Literally probably 95% of my posters are damaged. I have maybe like 25-30 severely damaged photocards and I even badly messed up a picket from MAP OF THE SOUL ON:E. I just can’t help but feel intense anxiety to the point where I cry and my hands shake. All I can do is keep thinking I’m such a fake army no other army treats their stuff so carelessly and messes their stuff up so bad. Am I the only one who does this and/or is so affected by this? I know the stuff is basically just paper but I can’t help it, it makes me so devastated. I’ll attach pictures of my room just for fun I guess but you won’t be able to tell what’s damaged. But at this point I feel like I have more damaged merch than undamaged. I know now not to use command strips on anything and to put sleeves on my photocards and post cards although I keep most of my photocards in a binder and my postcards in the albums with new stuff. I also have figured out the blue painters tape works the best for me and doesn’t damage for hanging things and posters…
Also please don’t judge I know my room is kinda doing the most 🤣

by MarchAccomplished498